Looking at old pictures has made me feel nostalgic….I’m starting to see that, no matter how much we may want to, we can never go back to how exactly things were in the past. I don’t know….maybe that’s a good thing. Still, I miss the way I used to be sometimes….the friendships I used to have. Sometimes….sometimes I just want that feeling back…that feeling that I can do anything I want….that the world is my oyster, or whatever. It’s almost come to the point where I don’t even like myself anymore…I need to learn to love myself again….the way I used to 1, 2 years ago. I need that back. Because without that….I feel like I’m drowning in my own disgust of myself. I just don’t like who I’ve become sometimes. Not that I think I’m a bad person, but I’ve just lost so much of the joy and love for life I used to have. I need to get that back….like SOON. *sigh* Time to stop sulking in self pity and do something about it I suppose…..alrighty….Day 1 of Operation get Brittany back on track….commence….